izigame.me

might have just soaked in this as nice, relatively undemanding sentimentality with a well-considered literary vibe had i played it at any other time, but for Current Me this unearthed and prodded me to interact with a bunch of feelings. these feelings were more related to creativity and trying to understand my own emotions rather then the more Big Obvious Central experience being depicted here ,,,im not soulless, i did feel things about it, but i didnt have as many Thoughts...though it does dovetail beautifully with the thoughts i did have about memory, the elusive feeling of being accomplished, and contributing to the lives of others. i do want to make things that will last, and i think thats more possible once i re-learn how to abstract things...take my blunt and mundane feelings and turn them into something mystical, without shame. i have literally always used writing, whether it be my attempts at fiction or my discussion of my Art Experiences, to attempt to give myself a voice that i can recognize, and to express things that i have been feeling, and to make myself feel things where i want to. its embarrassing to say, but ive not been reading a lot for a great many years, and i really need to. even just the more ephemeral moments of indirect presentation of events here made me remember how a world of Just Words with nothing else to anchor you can let u rest in a strange and hazy place of concentrated emotion, free from literal depictions and overwhelming sensory stimulation. i hope i can have a story im glad i wrote by the end of this year.